Needed to get out

I was feeling a little confined so we decided to get ready to go somewhere.  We ended up going for a drive.  We went to Red Robin to eat.  Kyle actually sat still the entire time!  We think it helped that we sat near the window so he had a nice view to look out of.  We had a nice quiet meal at a restaurant for the first time ever!

Afterward, we went to Target to walk around the store.  It was nice to get out of the house! 

Since being back home from our vacation, Shannon has been job searching and applying like crazy.  It's nice not having to do everything around here for once.  He's actually doing his own job search and filling out online applications.  I just wish he started looking for jobs weeks ago. 

In Florida, we ended up having a discussion about our marriage and I told him everything that bothered me and angered me about our marriage.  He didn't realize, nor did he see that everything was just building up and making me unhappy.  He thought that the little things do not matter, only the big things.  Since then, he's changed completely. 

For the last 3 years, he would talk about nothing but his case.  He would always brush off what I wanted to talk about or my hobbies as things that do not matter.  He has also changed his direction in life.  He no longer bases his future on what a psychic told him.  He's finally thinking and planning for Plan B, rather than what may happen.  All of which, I believe he/we should have been doing the entire time.

Jealousy

“He that is not jealous is not in love.” ~ St. Augustine

“Jealousy injures us with the dagger of self-doubt.” ~ Leslie Grimutter

A few days ago, I actually felt a little jealous. I have not felt this way in several years, especially since I have been married. I am glad I don’t have to date anymore because I do not like feeling jealous.

I showed my husband a video clip of a Big Brother contestant doing a striptease and being silly. He then mentioned that he used to date a girl like that. Now, being married, I do want to hear about the woman of his past, but then again, I don’t. I thought I knew about all of them, but he never gave details. In the end, I found out that they just went out on a few dates and that was it. Nothing MORE! So that’s good to know! That information made me feel better.